We wanted to take a step back and just talk.
So what is anxiety?
As you may know anxiety comes in different forms:
1) post traumatic stress 2) obsessive compulsive 3) panic 4) social anxiety 5) specific phobias and 6) generalized anxiety disorder. Although anxiety is a completely normal human emotion to have, some people experience this constant worrying feeling daily, over things that normally shouldn't spark these emotions. An example of a normal situation would be right before taking a test that could possibly get you into your favorite college or before presenting a big speech in front of a huge crowd. For me even small tasks like returning a phone call made my heart race a mile a minute. To a lot of people this sounds crazy but for me it's normal. I know this sounds bad but I've learned to live with this constant fear, because I felt like I had no other choice. Nobody knows what causes anxiety, but as for any other illness having a mental disorder is as serious as having the flu. It's not a character flaw, or a result of bad parenting but is a disease and shouldn't be taken lightly.
How I cope and what helps me.
I will probably suffer from anxiety for the rest of my life. It's become a part of me and I've learned to accept that. Since my very first experience I've accomplished so much and I keep telling myself that every morning instead of worrying about the day ahead. Everyday I try to push myself to do new things to break out of my comfort zone, while constantly reminding myself nothing bad is going to happen. Trust me the more you repeat it the more you begin to believe it. I'm still not the most confident person, and building up my self-esteem has always been an issue, but having anxiety shouldn't control your life, and I decided a long time ago that I wouldn't let it.
I've managed to overcome so much since my first panic attack, I still suffer from anxiety but I'm sharing my story in hopes of showing you that anything is possible even if you may think it sounds crazy. I've managed to start traveling again, I'm even planning a trip across the world. I now live in New York city and speak publicly on issues that many people suffer from daily.